All the Things I Wish I'd known

If I could compose a list right now, of things that I don't necessarily regret, but things I'd do differently based on what I know now, it would look something like this:

-I wish I knew in elementary school that it's ok to stand up for yourself.

-I wish I knew at 7 years old not to imitate pro dancers as I stand at the top of cement stairs with my hands wrapped up in my sweater.

-I wish I knew that avoiding math by sitting in the bathroom during Grade 7 would lead me to struggle in math for the next 3 years.

-I wish I knew that mom wasn't mad at me, it was the chemo talking. And I wish I knew how to deal with that better.

-I wish I knew that Grade 9 was going to be as difficult as it was, and I wish I knew how to get over it easier.

-I wish I knew that holding onto a good thing would have been better than letting go and suffering.

-I wish I knew that my first agent was taking a risk by signing me...and I let her down big time by being immature.

-I wish I knew how harsh some of my words were. I wish I knew how they hurt people. I wish I knew a way to make it better.

-I wish I knew that getting involved in university stuff could have been highly beneficial.

-I wish I knew how to tell someone how I felt about him, before any damage was done.

-I wish I knew that by not saying anything, I would break my own heart years later.

-I wish I knew that my grandpa was as sick as he was. I wish I knew to say goodbye properly.

-I wish I knew how important it is/was to save money.

That's all for now. I might randomly post some more 'I wish' notes.... :)

2 I've(s), 22 I(s), 6 I'm(s), 8 me(s), 3 my(s), 2 myself(s).

I've never been good at this...nope never.
This whole- telling people how you really feel- thing. It's really difficult for me. I prep myself for these huge speeches, these whole emotional,dramatic, honest speeches that I anticipate will just pour out of me. But they never do. It always ends in...mmhmm...yeah....uh....I think that..well..ok....
That's it!
I wouldn't say I'm a pushover...I just can never seem to get it out. If I manage to make two honest points about how I feel- it's miraculous. But those two points are never just it.
It can be about anything....telling someone how I feel about them: good or bad....etc.

What I'm going to do is try a new approach. I'm not sure what it's going to be yet...but I will figure it out!

Anyway, I am craving adventure. I really am. I need to get moving again. I've become such a potato. I'm not a 'couch' potato yet (because I'm rarely on the couch) but I just feel like I'm a potato. A daily dose of excitement is needed in my life. I need something to look forward to.

So after realizing how many times I used (I,me,my, etc) it occured to me, this post is all about me. I guess many of my posts have been....but this one is seriously about me. It doesn't really have anything to do with anyone else, at least not directly!
After analyzing this, it is to be believed that I have successfully focused on myself for once, and understood exactly what I want, and essentially what I need.
Gotta start being truthful. It's necessary. So ask me to tell the truth ok, and let me just tell you everything before I get a chance to breathe and take it all back.