Just a few words...

I'm sitting here, ready to go to the airport, and I thought that now would be a good time to blog.
I am really nervous for some reason. Like..really, really nervous. My hands have been shaking all day. My heart is racing. I'm basically freaking out. Just one of those things. I shouldn't be nervous about anything. Maybe it's just the fact that I'm going to be by myself. Seperation anxiety? Perhaps...

Anyway. I'd like to comment on the death of a great icon. You all know who I'm talking about. Clearly it's the King of Pop. My idol. I've loved him since I was a kid, and he was always someone I'd longed to meet, unfortunately our meeting will have to wait until the afterlife...or an alternate life. I know you've probably heard people say it a million times in the past two days...but he truly was a great influence on the entertainment industry. His early music career, his incredible performances, his scandals, personal life, etc. He was known for so many different things. What's a shame is that most people (most likely under the age of 18) will only remember him for his always changing face and being ridiculed on shows like South Park.
His death was unfortunate, and as many others have said recently, he will be missed.

I hope you are all doing well out there. I know that sounds stupid, but I really do hope you're feeling good. Is it weird that I genuinely hope for people to be happy? Hmm...maybe. But I do. Why do I care? Because I think this world needs some love to be spread. Seriously. I am getting so tired of people being so rude, so judgemental, so unloving. Maybe it's because they aren't cared about enough. So why not smile a little bit more? I hear it's contagious. Why not say hello to passerbys, even if you don't know them. Sure, for a second they may think you are crazy, but it's more than likely they will find it sweet, and perhaps pay it forward. Everyone always says they want peace within the world, so why not start by being peaceful with those you encounter throughout the day. I'm sure you'd feel a lot better if someone passing you smiled and said hello rather than ignored you looking sour, right? Random thought, but it's been on my mind.

Lastly, before I grab my stuff and head off, I'd like to say thanks.
Thanks for reading the ridiculous stuff I post. I don't know why you do it, but I'm glad you do.
Most of the time I just talk to myself on here, write down stuff as if it were a diary... speak as if I have something to say.

We all know I'm a fairly boring person, but I do have a lot on my mind. If only I could share everything! Then again, if you were to read exactly what I was thinking all the time, I'm sure you'd lose your mind, and realize I lost mine a long time ago.

For the next little while, keep sane, as I will try to.
I'm sure I will be writing a lot more than I have been, but not on here...that will have to wait until I have internet access again.

Ok, I'm outta here!

You all take care of yourselves alright?

Love ya

-a-
xo

so predictable

"I'm on the road To who knows where? Look ahead, not behind I keep saying"

Tedder/Brown/Bettis/Filkins/Myers

Trying so hard just to figure it all out. It's hurting the soul. Need some healing.

I won't

Staring into empty eyes
Tellin me such heartfelt lies
I don't care at all, no
I don't care at all.
Maybe if you were someone
That knew where I was coming from
And I thought maybe you could be the one
I'd care
I'd care

Sometimes it's better to waste away
Then to have never loved in the first place

I'll let you in
But keep your expectations low
I'm not gonna give my soul
Never gonna let my heart go
You're only here, for lack of better waste of time
Never gonna be mine
Never gonna be mine
Sorry if it hurts, but in my heart I know
I'm never gonna love you like I loved him
I won't

I watch shadows dance on the walls behind you
I forget what you're talking about
Reoccuring thoughts running through my head
I know you're speaking, but I don't hear sound
Try and grab my attention, I can't help but smile
I know you don't understand
You couldn't really know how bad I want to
spend this time with another man

Sometimes it's better to waste away
Then to have never loved in the first place

I'll let you in
But keep your expectations low
I'm not gonna give my soul
Never gonna let my heart go
You're only here, for lack of better waste of time
Never gonna be mine
Never gonna be mine
Sorry if it hurts, but in my heart I know
I'm never gonna love you like I loved him
I just know, I won't