time passes slowly when you're not having fun

It's 4am...
I'm lying fully awake.
Just want to sleep.
But knowing that I'm not, I wish I had someone to talk to.
Lonelyyy...I'm so lonellyyy...I have nobodyyy...ahhh
Ok well I guess I usually talk through this blog anyways, so in some stupid, delerious way, I did talk to someone tonight. Yes, it may be a computer. But it may also (but highly unlikely) be someone logging on this site and seeing I just uploaded something.
Ya know?
Yeah....probably not eh. So I guess after all, I am just lonely.
And craving pizza.
Goodnight....

Not Tonight

Fixated on the wall
As I lay sideways in my bed
Thoughts they pulse along
Going right through my head

The tears well up and before I know
They’re streaming down right to the pillow below
And here I am, just a girl who wants to sleep

But I have no way, no way to help it
No one to heal the hurt
That’s going on in my heart
No one to take me back to the start
And it’s alright, I’ll get through it
Just got to keep on keeping on
And I’ll be ok, once night turns to day
Because I’m good at keeping a smile upon this face
Let me fall asleep already
I plead with all my might,
I don’t wanna cry tonight

Roll over to the other side of my body
Maybe I’ll be able to close my eyes
But when I try, all that I am able to see
Are the things that keep me up, what a surprise

More tears well up and before I know
They’re streaming down right to the pillow below
And here I am, just a girl who wants to talk

But I have no way, no way to help it
No one to heal the hurt
That’s going on in my heart
No one to take me back to the start
And it’s alright, I’ll get through it
Just got to keep on keeping on
And I’ll be ok, once night turns to day
Because I’m good at keeping a smile upon this face
Let me fall asleep already
I plead with all my might,
I don’t wanna cry tonight

You're gonna stay lonely

You love the spotlight
You need it like you need air
But once the lights go off
Is there anybody there?
Probably not, no, and you wanna know why?
Cuz you couldn't care less, love, you couldn't care less

Walk that red carpet
Flash that smile
Fly off in that jet
Away a million miles
Eat like a royal
Drink your champagne
After it's all fizzled out
What will you gain?
Loneliness
More loneliness

Brutally ignore me
Cuz you think I'm less than you
Noone can make you see what's real
No, there's nothing I could ever do
You brush past my shoulder
Glance, then turn away
I wish you could hear
All the things I want to say

Put on that outfit and lock up your million dollar loft
In my heart I know, that I'm so much better off

Hypocrite

so angry....
just wrote an entire song off the top of my head and went to post and there is an error....

All that was left was the title, apparently autosave didnt work.

way too frustrated to even attempt to rewrite something that is nearly impossible to rewrite.

Night