We've come a long way from diaries with keyed locks

Dear E-Diary,

I need a fresh start.

-a-

Throw me a rope or something, will ya?

I stand here thinking of the days
When I never worried about not seeing you

I lie awake
Feeling pain
Thinking of how badly I want to talk to you

They tell me you play cards with angels
And that you're always watching over me

But when I look up to heaven
I realize I'd much rather just be

An angel too
I want to feel the wind beneath my wings
I want to be close to you
Want to learn about so many more things
So take me up with you
And don't ever leave me again
Don't need you where I can't see you
I just want to be
An angel too

My path's been buried by boulders
I need you to show me the way

My heart's been run over by soldiers
Who believe that war is just play

I sometimes feel you hiding in the shadows
Come out to the light

I feel pain that nobody knows
Wish I could be one tonight


An angel too
I want to feel the wind beneath my wings
I want to be close to you
Want to learn about so many more things
So take me up with you
And don't ever leave me again
Don't need you where I can't see you
I just want to be
An angel too

Hold my hand, though you never did before

Heal my heart and love me more

I want to have the space to fly

Leave and never need to say goodbye
Need to live and just be free
Have you there right beside me
But I take a glimpse at reality
and see

That I can't be an angel too
Got so much more living to do
I need to be all I can be
and let you just watch over me

So I'll put a flower on your heart
and walk away with a new start

Even though I'll still be missing you
I know what's true,

That, Someday I'll be an angel too

Do you believe in Luck?

Four leaf clovers
Lucky numbers
Nothing seems to get me to you

First star I see
11:11 on the clock by me
But I guess there is just no use...

It's Sunday morning
I'm really bored and,
I just really wanna pick up the phone

No, it's not easy
To hang it up halfway through your number
But it's easier than having to say (having to say)

How are you?
I miss you.
I need you.
Where have you been?
Sorry,
For not calling.
Not writing.
There was a lot put in
to
Never having to admit
Never having to tell you
Never needing you to know
But if I'm lucky
For once in my life
Yeah if luck is finally on my side
I'll be lucky enough to have you call me
and say everything I'd hope to say
I wanna be lucky.

Update

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.a.

Crack in the Windshield...or something like it

Wait, is that a tear? miss always-happy's feelin' low?
Are you really leaving? miss always-there has gotta go?
The makeup comes off, and they see the bareness that is real
A little shocked, a little scared, cuz they realize miss tough really feels
No more games of tic tac toe, predictability has gotta go
Determined that I wouldn't break
Well wasn't that a big mistake

Because they assumed I'd always be fine
Never let negativity get to my mind
Assumed I was a big enough girl
to put up with this crazy world
But it's been too much all at once
and I've got to drop the front
I'm finally breaking

Can you see me?


Watch the language, miss always sweet's had it up to here,
Hear the music, as I play the truth right into your ear.
Sweat pants on and wearing an old torn hat
Miss material wants to know if you can handle that
No more time for playing nice, I played too long and I paid the price
Kept it all in and I'm blowing up, spewing out all that my pain consists of

Because you assumed I'd be fine
Assumed I wouldn't have you on my mind
Assumed I was a big enough girl
to live without you in this crazy world
But it's been too much all at once
and I can't help but drop the front
I'm finally breaking