miss my spot!

so im awake and its 9:22 am! geez, who knew it was possible? haha i was actually forced to get up and take my brother to school. anyways, i miss my own little spot where i usually write. i haven't been there in over a month. it's really starting to get to me actually. i love going there when it's sunny out or just an ok day. but whenever i have free time, it's raining and i can't sit and write on paper in the rain now can i? you are probably thinking of ways to make it work right? yeah well....i'm too lazy to think logically. fact of the matter is i'm not too happy. lately i've just been so tired, frustrated, depressed, lonely, discouraged...i could probably go on forever. how is it that i can offer people good advice and be so optimistic, yet i can't do it myself? gaaaaa. yup that was the sound i just made.. gaaaa. why? im not sure...probably just frustration again.
ok im out, i'll post more later